Am I quarantining right!? I’ve definitely asked myself this question a few times a day over the last few months and I’m sure you have too.
Some days are better than others: I’ll clean the kitchen, vacuum the whole house. Do everyone’s laundry. Craft and design my resume for specific positions and apply to a bunch of jobs. I’ll play worship music and open my bible, listen to a few sermons. I even dance around to make sure my blood is flowing. All the things!
Then, there are days where it’s as if I can’t get out of bed. I’m overcome with sadness, overwhelmed and I don’t really know how to speak about what I’m experiencing. As a result of this, I feel guilt. Guilt because I know there is a single Mom out there somewhere who doesn’t have the option of not getting out of the bed during this time. Or I feel guilty because I have friends who I know are working more now from home than they were when they went into the office. And here I am with all this free time and family to love on and be loved by and I can’t get out of bed. Make it make sense!?
So back to the question, am I doing this thing right!? At times it feels like I can’t be! But honestly, the answer is simple:
There is no right or wrong way to do this thing. It’s a pandemic!
I am a Christian. I loveee Jesus and I really trust Him! But if I’m being really honest, this entire experience has been making me question, how much do I really trust Him? But in that question, I have to remind myself of what I know. Maybe these reminders will help you too! The Lord will never leave us or forsake us. He’s Jehovah Shammah which means the Lord who’s there. He’s Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides. He’s also a comforter and near to the brokenhearted. Even when our days are messy, He’s close!
And what is hard for me to deal with is easy for Him.
Just because I’m a Christian doesn’t mean I’m exempt of the day to days woes of social distancing and the crippling pain from reading the news. I’m human and there’s grace for me to receive in paralyzing moments of grief and anxiety. If I never feel these things then I’d never know the truth of God’s word. And If I never grieve the loss of “normalcy” and the lives lost of strangers, family and friends alike, I’d never know to trust the Lord as a comforter.
I say all of this to say: there’s no right or wrong way to quarantine through this plague that is Covid-19. This a pandemic. We’re all living through unexpected trauma. If I have the urge to pursue passion projects or work on new business ideas, great. But if I really just want to do the basics: pray, shower, eat, sleep, & repeat. That’s okay too! Because the answer to this question, am I doing this thing right? is technically, Yes! We all are. And it’s important to give ourselves grace! And to receive God’s grace! We’re all living in unprecedented times and there’s grace to be given to each of us dealing.
Stay home. Wash your hands. God loves you!
CordeliaParis 