8.24.15. August 24th 2015.
My last first day of school. Well my last first day of undergrad. It’s really hard to put into words the emotions and feelings tied into this date. I cannot believe three years passed by so quickly.
I entered into college not necessarily knowing how to tackle it. I knew what was essential to my life and that was to simply love God. Little did I know that, three years of college would test my beliefs and almost all that I learned growing up. Not necessarily in a major way, but I was tested. But just like test we have in class, the test we have in life are also graded and I guess I can say, I passed. Never did I stray away from God or loose sight of my purpose. Just haven’t always been quite sure how to fulfill my purpose.
But back to my first last day. It made me extremely emotional. I guess I can say a part of me was scared and that’s a feeling I can relate to my first day of undergrad in general. I feel I experienced some of the same emotions and for similar reasons. Although, I’m now a senior and used to college, I’m now having to start putting myself out into the real world and as much as I know about it, I’m still sort of blind sided. Just as I was blindsided about college. Everyone told me what it’d be like, what I had to do to be successful but I really didn’t know until I reached it. So this leads me to the question, how do I handle all that I have to do? All of my college responsibilities, plus getting my life together.
By the time you’re a senior in college, everyone around you is telling you, you should know where you want to work, what you want to do, where you want to live, who you want to love, and why? That is a lot of pressure coming along with being a senior in college. But then I remember all that I’ve learned, accomplished and conquered throughout college. How I came in as a scared freshman but flourished into a well rounded young woman and how I continue to learn and strive for better.
So I came to the realization that the way I conquered my freshman year and the two following was by finding a motto and sticking to it. Freshman year, my goal was to extend myself and not limit myself to things I was used to and I did just that. I got involved, made plenty of friends and attended events and programs I knew nothing about. Sophomore year, was the year of the flourish. I was eager to learn and grow but I wasn’t quite sure exactly how to do that until the next year, my junior year. My goal set then was to step out of my comfort zone and to learn that there is growth in being uncomfortable. Now, my goal simply is to learn the art of BALANCE. With all the stresses of senior year and everything that needs to be in order, BALANCE is a key factor to being successful and a key factor to my success.
I guess my overall message to this blog post is to, set a new goal each time you reach a new level in life. I allowed my thoughts and anxiety to get the best of me forgetting that I was made to conquer and achieve. Often times we get scared and discouraged about reaching new levels in life when in all actuality, this fear is a good thing. Take your fears, anxiety and insecurities head on and be optimistic; they’ll most likely work in your favor.
Optimistically Maverick
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